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We just got back from our fave Mexican restaurant in Indy, El Rodeos. The best damn margaritas EVER.
Upon the advice of my friend at work, who's Egyptian and beautiful, I talked to S. I just went up to her this morning and said "I jsut want to say again how sorry I am about what I said". She said "oh, it's ok." I felt so much better. Even the woman who was rude to every one was nice to me today.
I'm off to watch the live season finale of Will & Grace.
wow, life in the corporate world. Kind of bites. I've been unashamedly kissing up to my bosses. I don't care what people think about that. It's what I do. I'm nice to everyone. But a well placed "what can I do to help you' can go a long way!!
And the thin girl, S? We bumped into each other Monday. We said hello at the same time, and I made myself put how I felt about what happened out of my mind. I don't want to forget about what she said because I need to remember I could be hurting someone's feelings when I think I'm making a joke.
Hope all is well with anyone who's reading this! I started a gratitude journal and it's made me feel good about things! 
This is it. It says Gratitude, in case you can't read it.
I was leaving work and this girl, I'll call her S, came up to me and said "Can I talk to you". I'm thinking she's going to confide some secret to me. But no she says "I've got a problem with you always saying something about how skinny I am". I have said several things but in a joking way, and not as a put down. I felt so bad. I said I was sorry and that I was just jealous. She just said ok and walked away. She doesn't want to forgive me or be friends. Which is fine about the being the friends part. But she's obviously going to carry a grudge. I think that's so mean because if someone does something stupid because they're stupid, can you really hold that against them? I didn't say those things to be mean.I appreciate that she pulled me aside to tell me. But I'm afraid she's going to make trouble for me. Like tell on me if she ever sees I've made a mistake at work. Or slit my tires.
It kind of makes me mad really. Mad at her a little for holding a grudge. Mad at myself for being stupid. I came home and cried about it for Gods sake. How lame is that.
S was the first person I spoke to on my first day there (she hired in when I did). I said hello in a neutral way. Then I said someone smells good. And I asked her what she was wearing. She said Tommy Girl. But she said it in such a monotone, disinterested way, it was obvious she didn't want to even speak to me. After I paid her a compliment for Gods sake. What is wrong with this girl? And what do I do now. My instinct is to avoid her. And not speak to her when I see her unless maybe she should speak first, which is HIGHLY unlikely.
I've already been thinking about looking for another job. Not just because of this incident but because they treat us like such babies there. We don't even get email. How can we function without email?
This is the LAST thing I need to worry about.
If I could spell your-eek-a I would have titled this post as that. But I don't.
But I figured it out last night. You know, what my major malfunction is. I have no dream. All I have to look forward to is merely surviving. That won't do. It's not enough. I don't know if my Mary Kay business is it or not but I'm in search of what my dream would be.
Join me won't you?
Are Rita and Katrina sisters? Those will be unpopular names, especially in the south, for many years.
I just saw the JetBlue plane land, seemingly safely. What a relief.
Did you hear about the woman who was supposed to be on Extreme Makeover. Hours before her first surgery, dental I believe, they dropped her from the program. They said her recovery time would be too long to fit into the production schedule. And her siser killed herself. So sad. Here's more.
with the 'people' I work with? They are not for all of succeeding, they're all about outdoing each other. They're showing off. They're MEAN. I've never worked with people like that.
This person at work who's about 25 is really a bitch. She's just rude and proud of it. I swear she called me stupid today. Out loud. But as she says she just 'tells it like it is!'. But God forbid anyone tell her like it is.
I'm so glad I'm not that young and stupid anymore. And it really doesn't bother me that she might have said that. So in a way, it was a good thing that she said that because there was a time it would have really bothered me. And now I'm stronger and I just don't care.
Yay, me.
Why am I here? What's the purpose? I've never figured that out! and I've wondered it all my life!
Is it for Husband? Is just being on this planet enough? I don't want to just get by in life. I want to THRIVE. I've been at a grade C or C minus for too long.
Sigh.
This picture was taken about 5-7 years ago. But look at me. How sad do I look? I breaks my heart to look at me in this picture. I just look so sad. Ignore my husbands goof face. That's stepdaughter in the background. Husband said he bets I was thinking "When will all these people leave?". It was at a birthday party.
And I just realized I'm totally wearing the same shirt right now as I am in the pic!!
edited to add: what was I thinking, Marilyn? Probably "when will all these people leave?". Yes, hubby was probably right!!
I don't like confrontation with people, really. This morning when I went to work I said outloud that I'd been having a good morning till I got to work. Then I said something about how Husband can't believe the negative things I've said when I get home from work. I think saying it outloud some how made it better. A few people asked who made mean comments or whatever and I shrugged it off (because one of them was sitting there). And I actually understood more today than I have in several days.
I'm looking forward to the weekend though, that's for sure. Mostly to sleep till 9 am! I'm going to do all the dusting and vacume tomorrow. Friday I'll do the bathroom. And then I'll just have the kitchen floor and misc. Then I won't have it all to do on the weekend.
Later!
